confession

Mondays are not shaping up to be great days for me

I did talk to a couple of people today to get in put about whether they think it makes sense to use a HELOC to earn money. I did also drop Eli off at school and did my workout.

Last night was the vegan potluck, which means that Eli gets to be a little bit late. Thus, he's a bit slower in the morning.

And even with all that said, it's probably not a legitimate excuse for letting almost the entire day pass by. I've got just over one hour to rescue a bit of productivity on the class.

Okay I have a pretty good excuse today

It's 3:48 pm right now. I have not worked on my class at all. However, I did make some good progress yesterday afternoon. And I have a good excuse.

This morning I stopped by two credit unions to ask about a home equity line of credit. I am starting my research into investing in either rental properties or "fix and flip" properties. Mondays are also one of the days that I take care of getting Eli ready for (and to) school. I did do my workout this morning as well.

Well, so much for that

It's just before 5pm now. I've managed to let the whole day get by me without making one bit of progress on my class.

There, I said it.

It's not that I sat on Facebook or other social media fooling around all day. I could point to some things I have done, some more "legitimate" than others. Nonetheless, I do need to take responsibility for the fact that I accomplished not one thing for the class.

Well, I do have about 30 minutes before I need to leave to pick up Eli. How's about I get just a wee bit of work done now? Fair enough?

It's time

I'm ready to unleash my power. I'm ready to take advantage of the opportunities that come my way. I'm ready to live up to my potential. I'm ready to make the fiftieth year of my life a breakout year.

I've had my more-focused times and less-focused times over these last six years or so. On the whole I have to admit that I've been fairly undisciplined and scattered. While it's been fun to have the flexibility and to explore different things, it has also carried a certain cost both financially and emotionally.

I think I need to dance now

Recently I came across a Tedx talk in which the speaker said "leaders are readers" and that everybody should be reading every day. He went as far as to say we could all afford to spend 10 minutes reading every day, and if we did so we would end up reading twelve books each year. What he said made sense to me and I decided to start reading. I chose a book, "Callings: Finding and Following an Authentic Life", by Gregg Levoy that I had in my basement and which I had read previously.

I am an extremely judgemental person

Yes, that is what I just said and it means exactly what it sounds like. There is no punch line.

The TL;DR; version: I no longer want to be that person. I've carried that weight around for long enough. Starting today, I release myself from my judgemental self and free myself to be my compassionate self.

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I am capable of change AND I am capable of staying stuck in bad habits

Maybe I'm just procrastinating and wasting time reading through my older blog entries because I'm feeling tired right now. However, upon reading my entry about eating too much at the all-you-can-eat-buffet I had an idea for this entry I'm writing now.

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My son is breech

Lana and I really want to have a drug-free, natural childbirth at Mountain Midwifery Center. However, right now our son is in the Frank breech position. We had an ultrasound yesterday that confirmed it. Furthermore, the doctor said that there is not a lot of amniotic fluid surrounding the baby, which means that it is unlikely that the baby will turn (or can be made to turn).

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Do we ever really change?

Last night I went out with my in-laws to an all-you-can-eat buffet. I generally eat too much at these types of things. But, to make matters worse, the buffet was $15. So, I felt a compulsion to "get my money's worth." Never mind the fact that my in-laws were paying and it wouldn't make any difference to them how much I ate.

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Can you count to 100?

Last night I attended a Meetup for Drupal.The coordinator had prepared a presentation. Throughout the evening while he delivered the presentation I interjected points I felt were beneficial to everyone in the room. And yet, I must admit that I know the real reason I was interjecting was that I wanted to show everyone how smart I am and how much I have learned about Drupal. In other words, I was trying to impress the people in the room.

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